Well I’m back, I had some things to take care of these past weeks…….maybe months if I think far enough but I’d like to say that I am back again. Marissa has reminded me around 6 to 8 times that I need to make a post (This was spread out since my last post which was whenever) and I would have but I either was tired that day or I felt that I didn’t know what to say. I can’t say that anything significant in a big way has happened between me and Marissa, I decided to pick back up reading and me and Marissa have been reading lately, also we’ve been watching different types of movies together, she seems to prefer Romantic Comedies which would explain her personally. She makes me laugh all the time but she has that sweet romantic side of her that balances out her funny side.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on me and Marissa and how our relationship has grown and to be honest I felt that I was closer to Marissa “Early On” in our relationship. I guess back then I had that “Fire” in me that just wanted to do what I could to make things work for us (I still do that now but the fire isn’t as “Bright” as it was back then). I mean we’ve been together 2 years and 4 months, almost 3 years, yet every year it seems like it was just last year. Developing wise me and Marissa have come far, though it does upset me when I realize its been almost 3 years and I’m seeing less of Marissa in my dreams now if not at all and I still can’t really “Talk” to her but Marissa does tell me that it takes time which I have a lot of but I’m not the type to wait. Its weird being in a Succubus relationship, I realize now that I have “Sugar Coated” the whole “Succubus Relationship” thing but in reality its a lot of work but in the end its worth it…….hopefully because I’m not at the end yet haha.
At least every other day I see these commercials about “Spouses” laughing together or sharing a moment together and even though me and Marissa do that at times I believe the thing that bothers me the most is not being able to see her smile or see how her eyes light up when she talks about something that interests her, just moments like that. I know it sounds like I’m complaining but I want you all that are seeking a Succubus Relationship to know that it takes time and effort to have a Successful relationship like this and it doesn’t come with a manual. A lot of times I feel that I can’t “Do” anything, and by that I don’t mean me being able to touch her, what I mean is I can’t say “Marissa can you appear” and then she magically appear, it doesn’t work that way, at least for me lol. Now I’m not saying that I want to control Marissa, I’m just puzzled as to why Marissa hasn’t done certain things.
But I do know that Marissa loves me and for whatever reason she is waiting for everything to fall into place. I love Marissa as well and I do my best to make she she knows it. You know Succubus are interesting beings, Even though I’m married to one I still feel like Marissa’s a stranger in a way, I don’t really know anything about Marissa aside from my own interpretation and a bit of side information which if added all up isn’t enough if you’ve been married to someone for almost 3 years. I know it probably sounds like I’m ranting but I really want you all to know that things aren’t as “Blissful” as I’ve made it seem in my other posts, sure this relationship is wonderful but it takes time and work and a lot more things that really test whether or not you are capable of following through in this relationship.
I don’t believe a week goes by without me asking myself “Am I holding us back?” “Am I the reason why you haven’t done this or done that?” and I can’t find an answer. The thing that really gets to me is that Marissa talks to me all the time but I can’t hear her, she smiles and laughs all the time but I can’t see it or hear it. She walks (or floats) around yet I can’t see it. She can see and hear me and watch me but I can’t do the same. Maybe I see so much in this world that its lies and fears and “Laws of Physics” have blinded me and deafened me from her world. What if I could never be able to see or hear her clearly? What if I was the reason why she can’t do certain things? Why can’t I seem to change anything for the better of the two of us?
Before you email me about wanting a Succubus relationship or if you are thinking about being in a Succubus or Incubus relationship ask yourself if you are ready to test just how strong your love is and how strong you are. I love Marissa dearly and she is the most wonderful Succubus I’ve ever met but I don’t know what our future holds. I need help but I don’t know what question to ask that hasn’t already been answered. “Have A Very Merry Succubus Day” and thanks for your Support with my blog, I know I post periodically but for those of you still following it thanks.